Doing something for me

Well I know that I have not written for awhile but that is what being too busy does to us right? Anyways, I was inspired to start a diet this morning when I woke up and didn't fit my favorite pair of jeans. I am tired of being "the fat one" in a family of perfectly skinny people. I feel bad about the way I look to the point that I don't even want to do my make up anymore. I find it hard to feel sexy or even cute. I can't stop thinking about the great words of Dr. Phil. "I ran into a couple that had recently been divorced and were back on the market and they both looked great. They had lost a lot of weight and felt better than ever. I couldn't help but think to myself that if they would have done that in the first place they would still be married......." I thought this was a good point. All to often we get comfortable in our relationships and no longer feel the need to take care of ourselves. Well I can relate because I have fallen of the edge of reality into this weight slump. I am not a very strong willed or headed person so I have decided to write down my feelings for two reasons; one I can look back and see the truth so that there are no more excuses or lies to myself and two I feel obligated to keep up the deal I make with the world. I can do this and I will be writing at least once a week to keep updated. It is time for me to be me again.............